~its all about balances~

Feelings of confusion,
Depression,
Uncertainty.

Where do I belong?
Where do I go?
What do I do?

What would I say?

Deep inside
Is the urge to scream.
At what?

Trapped.
No escape.
Have the need,
The desire,
The want,
For release -
For freedom.

i hate uncertainty !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate uncertainty !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate uncertainty !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ dun give hope if it is meant to be broken~

If you search for tenderness  
It isn’t hard to find  
You can have the love you need to live  
But if you look for truthfulness  
You might just as well be blind  
It always seems to be so hard to give  

Honesty is such a lonely word  
Everyone is so untrue  
Honesty is hardly ever heard  
And mostly what I need from you  

I can always find someone  
To say they sympathize  
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve  
But I don’t want some pretty face  
To tell me party lies  
All I want is someone to believe  

I can find a lover  
I can find a friend  
I can have security  
Until the bitter end  
Anyone can comfort me  
With promises again  
I know, I know  

When I’m deep inside of me  
Don’t be too concerned  
I won’t as for nothin’ while I’m gone  
But when I want sincerity  
Tell me where else can I turn  
Because you’re the one I depend upon  

erm…dh lama rasanya tak dengar bunyi ombak…semalam….aku  buat

permintaan untuk tgk laut……tenang…..sungguh hati ni….setenang air

laut yang biru…..walaupun seskali berombak lembut…..namun tak sehebat

ombak di hati ku ini…..alhamdulilah….memang indah kejadian

tuhan…..laut yang luas tu memang saujana mata memandang……dan aku

terdengar suara hati aku mendendangkan …………suatu lagu…

You ask me if I love you 
And I choke on my reply
I’d rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you 
On what you say or do? 
I’m only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch 
The honesty’s too much 
And I have to close my eyes and hide 
I wanna hold you til I die 
Til we both break down and cry 
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy 
Leaves me battling with my pride 
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives 
I’m just another writer 
Still trapped within my truth 
A hesitant prize fighter 
Still trapped within my youth

And drive you to your knees 
At times I’d like to break through 
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I see how hard you’ve tried 
I’ve watched while love commands you 
And I’ve watched love pass you by

At times I think we’re drifters 
Still searching for a friend 
A brother or a sister 
But then the passion flares again

Dalam cinta harus saling percaya
Dalam cinta harus berani pasrah
Dalam cinta harus janganlah goyah
Dalam cinta harus sejiwa

dah lama rasa nya aku berhenti menulis blog ni….anyway..hari ni aku ada secebis ungkapan yang ingin kucoret kan……..bingkisan hati ini..yang tak terluah dgn kata2…..lalu…ku puisikannya agar tak bergumpal dlm hati ….

Seperti petir
dusta mu itu menyambar segenap
rasa percaya
yang baru bercambah.