~its all about balances~

I’m smiling when my heart cries
I’m laughing to forget my sorrows
I’m tough on the surface
But not all the way through

I always ask…why this thing happens to me.

I forgot that I am the chosen one..

I should be grateful and thankful.

Pain teaches me a lot of things…

I fail to express my feelings
Where I really need to
I commit mistake and mishap
That I never realize
Until it cause me so much pain
That’s what I gain
I try to remember the past
To live today

Then I learn
That the past is so far away
That this present is what I must face
That it drag my feelings almost everyday
Miserably..

I pray and I pray
For strength and spirit
To encounter whatever may
Take my true smile away
Until then I’ll always adapt and aware

Ku

cuba

Tetapi tak mampu mengapai awan

Ku

cuba

Tetapi tak mampu menerjang dasarnya

Andai ku mampu menjadi pelukis

Akan ku lukis sebuah lukisan indah

Tentang indahnya alam semesta ciptaan Tuhan

Andai ku mampu menjadi penyair

Akan ku syairkan puisi indah

Menunjukkan betapa besarnya anugerah Tuhan

Andai ku mampu menjadi pelari

Akan ku berlari mengelilingi dunia

Dan berceritakan kemuliaanNya

Sedangkan aku bagaikan orang-orang ditengah sawah

Ditimpa hujan,panas dan ribut

Tetapi aku tetap aku….

Manusia lemah yang selalu kalah

Pada diri sendiri…

Aku mengaku…dalam hidup ini….

Banyak dosaku pada Nya…

Ingin sekali kubasuh segala dosa ini..

Dengan air mata keinsafan ku…

Tuhan..kuatkan ketakwaanku..

tebalkan keimanan ku…

menghadapai hari-hari mendatang..

-hamba Mu yang lemah-

To us human beings,
Time will never wait for us,
Unless we catch them first.

But I wish time will pass me by,
As quick as the speed of light,
Cause I just wanna forget,
About the past that made me sad.

I feel him in my mind,
Yet he is so far,I guess the only way to stop time,
Is for me to die,
But I don’t want anybody to cry,
On the day of my demise.

So I guess I’ll change my mind,
And try to live my life;
There’s always two sides of a story,
It’s either sad or happy
Like a distant star,
I’m wishing on tonight

Now I feel alive,
With God by my side,
I will cherish my life,
And never go back in time.

so nice….spending my wednesday (23/Jan/2008) at

Cameron

Highlands

…

tak plan betul2 pun nak pergi tu…gambel je with my frenz after ofis hour..we stay at

Vila

Dahlia

Dengan slumber nye..dgn minyak keta tak check..kami pun bertolak lah ke Cameron…skali…on the way naik tu….minyak dah merah ….bagi signal..bila2 masa je minyak nk habis..huh…dlm hati tak putus-putus doa semoga slamat sampai….akhir nya…alhamdulilah..selamat la sampai…mkn steam boat..best~~

so..jalan2 je la…tenangkan fikiran….damai

kan

jiwa…..

…kuch..kuch hota hai (something happen) ….sweet memories will remain…till the end of my life…..

so brief introduction of

cameron

Highlands

…

Dinamakan sempena : seorang pegawai Inggeris iaitu William Cameron yang menemuinya pada tahun 1885 ketika sedang membuat tinjauan pemetaan.

Lokasi : terletak di Barat Daya negeri Pahang, setinggi 1,829 meter dari aras laut dan mempunyai bersuhu antara 10⁰c hingga 20⁰c.

Keistimewaan : pusat peranginan…pusat pengeluaran teh dan sayur-sayuran…boleh bercuti bersama keluarga…

aku tengah belajar menjadi seorang manusia yang optimistik….

kalau aku rasa aku susah…ada orang org yang yang lebih susah dan hidup merana….

kalau aku  rasa aku  kurang kasih sayang….ada org yang tak pernah merasai kasih sayang..mak & ayahnya..

sekurang-kurangnya…aku ada mak..ayah..adik beradik…

kalau aku rasa aku terbuang..ada orang yang tak pernah

dipedulikan dari sejak kecil lagi…dicampak merata di jalan..

kalau aku rasa hidup aku ini sunyi..

ada seorang manusia yang sentiasa membuat aku rasa terhibur dan happy….

kalau aku rasa aku ada kekurangan dalam diri ini..

itu adalah anugerah AllAH untuk aku perbaiki….

dan mualai hari ini…aku tak perlu merasakan lagi semua itu….kerana…itulah realiti kehidupan…ada sakit…sedih..gembira…sunyi…sakit hati…

kalau tak rasa semua tu…itu berlakon namanya…

when I look up the world, I wonder
what life has to offer

I ask myself,"am I going to be like others?"
who merely sigh, "what will be will be"

but then I remember my true worth
and just how strong you could be

NO! I will not take life as it is
instead I will shape my own destiny

for I know what I want out of life
how to overcome problems and survive

Life is not easy
especially when dreams seem out of reach
and failure follows every defeat

when spiteful tongues pass unfounded judgment
and disapproval and criticism come my way
then I will turn a deaf ear and remember
am my very own person

I will cling to my wildest dreams
the secret hopes and high ambitions
and strive to make them reality

instead of remaining illusions
for what is life if one merely sigh
"what will be will be"

YES, I will shape my own destiny!

The adventure of life is to learn.
The purpose of life is to grow.

The nature of life is to change.
The challenge of life is to overcome.

The essence of life is to care.
The opportunity of life is to serve.

The secret of life is to dare.
The spice of life is to befriend.

The beauty of life is to give.
The joy of life is to love

~William Arthur Ward~

[1] Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional
abuses are not a part of love.

[2] Love is not manipulative, it should not be used
to get others to do what you want. You should
never give in to demands based on the, "You would
do it if you loved me!" tactic.

[3] Love is an intense feeling of caring for another
person. It can take many different forms (romantic,
friendly, familial) but it is always about caring.

[4] Although it is true that a big part of love is
putting another person’s happiness ahead of your
own this never includes compromising your values
or being untrue to yourself.

[5] If somebody asks you to do something that
you don’t want to do in order to "prove" your love
they do not love you the way you might think they
do. When you love another person you don’t ask
them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name
of that love.

[6] It is very easy to confuse lust for love. The true
measure of romantic love is commitment and trust
not physical attraction.

[7] It is possible to feel romantic love for more than
one person at a given time. Just think, if it is
possible for you to love both of your parents at the
same time why would it be impossible to feel
romantic love for two people at once? Don’t beat
yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this
unhappy situation. But be sure to remain single
and be open and honest with all parties about your
feelings and confusion.

[8] Sex is NOT love. Love is NOT sex. Sex can be
a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.

[9] Romantic love can (and often does) fade. When
it goes there is not always a reason. When
somebody falls out of love with you it does not
reflect upon your value as a person or your
desirability.

[10] Love should make you feel happy, secure and
appreciated.

kau boleh acuhkan diriku
dan anggap ku tak ada
tapi tak

kan

merubah
perasaanku kepada mu

ku yakin pasti suatu saat
semua

kan

terjadi
kau

kan

mencintaiku
dan tak akan pernah melepasku

aku mau mendampingi dirimu
aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
selalu bersedia bahagiakan mu
apa pun terjadi
ku janjikan aku ada
kau boleh jauhi diriku
namun ku percaya
kau

kan

mencintaiku dan tak akan pernah melepasku

aku mau mendampingi dirimu
aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
selalu bersedia bahagiakan mu
apa pun terjadi
ku janjikan aku ada
oh yeah.. aku ada

aku mau mendampingi dirimu
aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
aku yang rela terluka untuk masa lalu..

aku mau mendampingi dirimu
aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
selalu bersedia bahagiakan mu
apa pun terjadi
ku janjikan aku ada

sincerely - AA

You are the answer to my lonely prayer

You are an angel from above

I was so lonely till you came to me

With the wonder of your love

I don’t know how I ever lived before

You are my life, my destiny

Oh my darling, I love you so

You mean everything to me

If you should ever, ever go away

There would be lonely tears to cry

The sun above would be never shine again

There would be teardrops in the sky

So hold me close and never let me go

And say our love will always be

Oh, my darling, I love you so

You mean everything to me (You mean everything to me)

So hold me close and never let me go

And say our love will always be

Oh, my darling, I love you so

You mean everything to me